the benign desires of the typical pedophile

## the benign desires of the typical pedophile

#### 16 August 2014
from celibate pedophiles

### ethan edwards

| One way of knowing about pedophiles is from the perpetrators of abuse. Another way is from the stories of teens who realize that they are attracted to children. Ethan Edwards is the co-founder of Virtuous Pedophiles. Blog posts reflect his personal views, and are not statements from the organization. Appearing on Monday in medium.com was a very interesting piece by Luke Malone. It's an excellent article that has made good waves. We at Virtuous Pedophiles put Luke in touch with Adam, so we've been eagerly awaiting this story.I went looking for discussions, and found [this on Jezebel] The sample of the lengthy discussion that I read was civil and thoughtful. Relatively few called for our violent demise. Most agreed with the idea that it's worth studying pedophiles and offering them help if it can protect children. If that came to pass, the world would be a better place. But I am not happy. There is still so much misunderstanding. A fitting analogy would be a call for the study of mosquitoes to help eradicate malaria. We are as insignificant as bugs. Except people feel better about mosquitoes than they do about pedophiles — they know it is in the nature of a dumb bug to suck blood, but the pedophile — his desire is evil. What do pedophiles want from children? Pedophiles as anyone else. You may know a few men whose main thought in relating to women is a desire to mount and copulate as soon as possible — but they are surely a small minority. There is a corresponding minority of pedophiles with stark desires. But think about an average decent guy — not the few who have problems understanding consent. His reaction on seeing a woman is not primarily how she would look naked and sexually aroused. He cares about her face, her personality, her laugh, her character, her interests and plans. His attraction is to the woman as person. An average pedophile feels the same way about children as people. The average decent guy who is attracted to a woman will get to know her and at some point he might explore some physical intimacy with a kiss or a hug or a roving hand (if she doesn't first). But vital to the man's desires is that the woman wants this intimacy as well. If she doesn't, he will stop. The average pedophile will never get to that point. He may avoid children entirely because he doesn't want people to think he's a molester — a fear and motivation he shares with ordinary men. He might avoid them because it is frustrating to never be able to have a full relationship. He might spend time with children and enjoy their company on a casual basis. Or it might be more consistent, resulting in a friendship that is rewarding to both. But he will not let anything sexual happen. He knows it is not OK. He knows the girl is not interested in sexual activity, and if by some chance it looked like she was, he knows it is not in her long-term interest at all. A pedophile is sexually attracted to children. But the child who an average pedophile actually wants to have sex with is one who fully understands sex and what it means and is interested in it. And that child is a mythical creature! Knowing he will never find any such creatures, an average pedophile remains celibate for his entire life. Hardly any pedophiles fit the myth of wanting to harm a child or have power over her — one way we know is the rarity and unpopularity of CP featuring such scenarios (according to Michael Seto). Far from having a fantasy of rape, the average pedophile's fantasy is of a mutually desired relationship. It may be disturbing to most people, but there is no negative intent in the fantasy. The average pedophile remains celibate and does not engage in actions with negative effect either. So what can a person of goodwill do? A goal might be to construct a new image of 'pedophile' in your mind to sit alongside the monster you are familiar with. Fill out this new pedophile with compassion, self-control, understanding, and the firmest commitment to never abuse a child. Fill him out with a sexual attraction to children that stays entirely in his head. When you hear someone is a pedophile, bring to mind both images and keep an open mind as to which one fits him better. Abuse survivors have experience with the worst pedophiles. They may not have been abused by a pedophile at all, but in any case they were abused by a man who lacked some combination of self-control, compassion, and understanding. Often these are fathers, step-fathers and brothers — people intimately involved in a child's life — and the betrayal of trust is a huge element of harm. When it goes on for a long time, when there is secrecy, when there is no escape, when mothers angrily reject a child's frightened recounting of the truth — these all make things worse. Survivors' groups are full of women who have suffered the most devastating abuse. People in the broader society who haven't been abused derive their own picture of abusers from these stories. And these images are light years away from the average celibate pedophile. They are even far away from the pedophile who crosses the line into improper behavior — starting with perhaps letting a hand linger in the wrong place for too long on one occasion. One way of knowing about pedophiles is from the perpetrators of serious, harmful abuse. Another way is from the stories of 16-year-old teens who realize with terror and agony that they are attracted to children. The path from the latter to the former is not direct or at all inevitable — there is a vast space of possibilities, including the lifelong celibate pedophile. And even the fantasies of such men are benign. About the author: Ethan Edwards is a pseudonym. I am a pedophile, always celibate, and I have never seen child pornography. My attraction is strongest to girls around 4 years old, but I am also attracted to girls and women up through their 30s or beyond. Now in my late 60s, I'm divorced and living alone. I was married for over 10 years and was heavily involved with raising my 3 daughters. For most of my career I was a successful software engineer. I am very unusual for a pedophile in that I didn't realize that I was one until I was in my 50s—but it was there all along. I am angry that we all must remain silent or risk losing everything. That was my mindset when I co-founded Virtuous Pedophiles in 2012. I soon learned of the the terror of the typical pedophile who realizes as a teenager that his attraction isn't going to go away, who has nowhere to turn for help. The injustice I am most passionate about is the harsh legal penalties imposed on pedophiles who passively view illegal images of children. I stepped down from my role as a director of Virtuous Pedophiles early in 2024 and am delighted to pass the mantle on to a younger generation. This content was taken from Ethan's longstanding blog, Celibate Pedophiles. Some of the titles and taglines have been edited for their inclusion at thepword. You can see an earlier version of the blog at the wayback machine. |

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lukas How could the thing I feared most end up being what liberated me? I am not a pedophile but I experienced "pedophile-themed" OCD. Meeting MAPs changed my life for the better. |  | bly I would say the group I consider myself part of, is people who are emotionally or sexually drawn to the idea of identifying with or identifying as if a minor. |  | ethan edwards There is space for children to not be victimized, but there is no space for pedophiles to think that gives them the right to do sexual things with kids that they perceive to be willing.

unique window lukas How could the thing I feared most end up being what liberated me? I am not a pedophile but I experienced "pedophile-themed" OCD. Meeting MAPs changed my life for the better.
autopedophilia and ageplay bly I would say the group I consider myself part of, is people who are emotionally or sexually drawn to the idea of identifying with or identifying as if a minor.
review of "pedal" by chelsea rooney ethan edwards There is space for children to not be victimized, but there is no space for pedophiles to think that gives them the right to do sexual things with kids that they perceive to be willing.