pedophilia and suicide

## pedophilia and suicide

#### 14 November 2014
from celibate pedophiles

### ethan edwards

| It has been noted that people who face charges for CP possession or sexual molestation of a child commit suicide pretty often, though I'm not aware of any studies that have been large enough to allow statistical tests. Here is one reference from Malaysia of suicide among those facing charges. This... Ethan Edwards is the co-founder of Virtuous Pedophiles. Blog posts reflect his personal views, and are not statements from the organization. It has been noted that people who face charges for CP possession or sexual molestation of a child commit suicide pretty often, though I'm not aware of any studies that have been large enough to allow statistical tests. Here is of suicide among those facing charges. recognizes the problem and would be an interesting read. is a recent case which made the news because of his position in Washington. My guess is that the rates of suicide would be higher for those charged with this kind of crime because the perpetrators feel intense shame — markedly above that for other crimes. As I argued in my previous post, some pedophiles hate themselves intensely even if they have done nothing wrong, and it's easy to imagine that exposure of their secret would be enough to drive them to suicide. What interests me even more is the number of teen boys and men who kill themselves when there is no imminent threat of disclosure. A remarkable number of the men who write to Virtuous Pedophiles have had significant suicidal thoughts. Some have attempted suicide. Those who succeeded obviously cannot write to us. If we think about the situation of a teen pedophile, we can easily see the level of distress that might lead to suicide. The teen years are already a time of uncertain self-esteem and self-image, combined with relatively poor self-control. Imagine you have just discovered that the only people who you are attracted to are children. You suspect you will never be able to have sex or know love. You know the society has you pegged as one of the most despicable people on the planet. You are told that you are doomed to molest a child soon or later, and the intensity of your teen sex drive will make that seem plausible. You may have strong reason to doubt that your family or friends would accept you if you revealed your secret. If you found the courage to talk to a school counselor or see a psychotherapist, you would fear that she or he might report you to the police simply for your attractions. In any case they are likely to treat you not with the compassion they would find for just about any other life difficulty, but with revulsion. In comparison, the outlook for gay and lesbian youth seems positively sunny. It has been noted for some time that have higher suicide rates. Whether you think pedophilia is a sexual orientation or not, it is similar in many ways but doesn't merit any mention in that Wikipedia article. According to , out of 100,000 20-year-old males, something under 20 kill themselves in any given year, for a rate of 0.02% — one fiftieth of a percent. If we took the fairly standard estimate of 1% of the male population being pedophiles, then even if all of the suicides were pedophiles, it would be a rate of 2%. Of course suicide being heavily concentrated in any small group is highly unlikely, but it sets an upper bound. On the other hand, it is the rate per year, and a young pedophile has several years of exposure. Yet even if 10% of suicides by teen boys were pedophiles, it would be of considerable interest. In how many cases is a suicide note the first confirmation that someone was a pedophile? My assumption is that police would not publicize the contents of a suicide note without compelling interest, for instance if it was linked to some recent crime. Nearest of kin have control of the notes, and it is easy to imagine that most would not reveal that the deceased was a pedophile. Ryan Loskarn's mother chose to publish his suicide note. He had already been accused of CP possession, so the basic secret was already out. What's more, he was raising some extenuating circumstances — his own past abuse — that made it of interest. While police would not announce the private content of any given suicide note, it would be possible for them to keep statistics to be reported in aggregate form. I don't know if this has been done. Barring that, it would be of interest to hear anecdotal reports of those with years of experience in reading such notes. Is pedophilia mentioned? I would welcome any leads on this issue. About the author: Ethan Edwards is a pseudonym. I am a pedophile, always celibate, and I have never seen child pornography. My attraction is strongest to girls around 4 years old, but I am also attracted to girls and women up through their 30s or beyond. Now in my late 60s, I'm divorced and living alone. I was married for over 10 years and was heavily involved with raising my 3 daughters. For most of my career I was a successful software engineer. I am very unusual for a pedophile in that I didn't realize that I was one until I was in my 50s—but it was there all along. I am angry that we all must remain silent or risk losing everything. That was my mindset when I co-founded Virtuous Pedophiles in 2012. I soon learned of the the terror of the typical pedophile who realizes as a teenager that his attraction isn't going to go away, who has nowhere to turn for help. The injustice I am most passionate about is the harsh legal penalties imposed on pedophiles who passively view illegal images of children. I stepped down from my role as a director of Virtuous Pedophiles early in 2024 and am delighted to pass the mantle on to a younger generation. This content was taken from Ethan's longstanding blog, Celibate Pedophiles. Some of the titles and taglines have been edited for their inclusion at thepword. You can see an earlier version of the blog at the wayback machine. |

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the p word What is this website? A place where you can hear a voice that is rarely allowed to speak. But people who love free speech do not love ours. |  | leonard johnston How do you live a safe life? For me, an important part is understanding and sticking to my boundaries. |  | ethan edwards I would estimate we heard from 180 women in this situation in the first six years of our existence.

pedophiles who don't excuse child sexual abuse the p word What is this website? A place where you can hear a voice that is rarely allowed to speak. But people who love free speech do not love ours.
you, twenty years from now: setting your boundaries leonard johnston How do you live a safe life? For me, an important part is understanding and sticking to my boundaries.
my boyfriend's a pedophile, version 2 ethan edwards I would estimate we heard from 180 women in this situation in the first six years of our existence.