more on cp — preparing to go digging

## more on cp — preparing to go digging

#### 18 December 2014
from celibate pedophiles

### ethan edwards

| While I believe that virtual CP should be made available so that pedophiles can get sexual satisfaction out of it, I do not feel that way about CP made with real children. Ethan Edwards is the co-founder of Virtuous Pedophiles. Blog posts reflect his personal views, and are not statements from the organization. I knew I had written a lot of posts on CP, but my index showed me just how many. I have mixed feelings about this focus. My summary view is that making CP is wrong and appropriately considered a crime. While I've argued on civil liberties grounds that simple possession should not be a criminal offense, I can understand why some people consider viewing it a moral travesty. Personally, I can see some moral question marks, but I'm coming to wonder if part of the reason I believe that viewing it is immoral is that that is what I have been taught, like everyone else. While I believe that virtual CP should be made available so that pedophiles can get sexual satisfaction out of it, I do not feel that way about CP made with real children. But I am told that virtual CP is rare and real CP is common, and I am aware that it is a strong temptation for many pedophiles — one that many of us feel as an addiction. I am also aware of too many pedophiles whose lives have been effectively ruined by something that just isn't a serious crime akin to murder or rape — unless you think that a sexual interest in children is in and of itself a moral lapse of the highest order. CP is also an interesting subject for me to blog about since I have never seen any. Personal knowledge would make me better-informed — but of course it would also be admitting to illegal activity and create a personal interest in rationalization. On the other hand, no individual's experience of CP would cover the entire range in any case. It is a valid complaint of civil liberties groups that the police do not allow independent inspection of the CP they seize — this ought to be available to selected journalists and scientists at the very least. So where does my knowledge come from? I have learned a bit from conversing with people who have seen it, from discussions and articles online, and from reading the description in . The natural inclination is to hear the words "child pornography" and immediately feel shock, horror, and disgust. These reactions deter wanting to take a closer look, so most people are content to let the police keep what has been seized as a secret. But that is rarely the basis of good policy or understanding. You may hate pedophiles, but people who have no sexual interest in children are in danger from blanket prohibitions. People are arrested for having Sally Mann photographs. Men are arrested for having pictures of their nude grandchildren playing on the beach. Just accepting that CP is all horrible is akin to hearing "cancer" and imagining a painful illness that will kill you within months. Cancer is never a good thing, but if you are diagnosed and forced to think about it, the different types and prognoses matter to you a great deal. Put yourself in the shoes of your son. Imagine you have a teen boy's sex drive and a teen boy's wavering self-control, but you are sexually attracted only to children. You don't dare talk about it with anyone. You don't hurt any children, but late on some lonely night you go looking for pictures of what in your fantasies you would love to do. That is far less harmful than driving drunk, but the consequences are infinitely more severe. If it's your son, you suddenly have a motivation to understand all the nuances of CP. That's the setting for the present series of posts. Let's look inside that phrase "child pornography" and see what's there. Since the police won't allow researchers to characterize it and study it, I am reduced to brainstorming. In the interest of avoiding "tl;dr" reactions, I'll break this into a series of posts. Stay tuned. About the author: Ethan Edwards is a pseudonym. I am a pedophile, always celibate, and I have never seen child pornography. My attraction is strongest to girls around 4 years old, but I am also attracted to girls and women up through their 30s or beyond. Now in my late 60s, I'm divorced and living alone. I was married for over 10 years and was heavily involved with raising my 3 daughters. For most of my career I was a successful software engineer. I am very unusual for a pedophile in that I didn't realize that I was one until I was in my 50s—but it was there all along. I am angry that we all must remain silent or risk losing everything. That was my mindset when I co-founded Virtuous Pedophiles in 2012. I soon learned of the the terror of the typical pedophile who realizes as a teenager that his attraction isn't going to go away, who has nowhere to turn for help. The injustice I am most passionate about is the harsh legal penalties imposed on pedophiles who passively view illegal images of children. I stepped down from my role as a director of Virtuous Pedophiles early in 2024 and am delighted to pass the mantle on to a younger generation. This content was taken from Ethan's longstanding blog, Celibate Pedophiles. Some of the titles and taglines have been edited for their inclusion at thepword. You can see an earlier version of the blog at the wayback machine. |

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