## jakob ### anti-contact pedophile #### writing from may 2018

| I will not say it was easy for me to acknowledge my attraction, because I am 24 now, and I was 22 when I acknowledged it to myself, and it was actually a really weird experience, because, this might sound weird, but there was this teacher at Oxford who once argued that it’s not so much that you change your mind, as much as it is that your mind changes you. And that was really the experience I felt like, because I was just walking home from school, to my parents’, and I didn’t intend to think in my mind, but I did, that just accept to yourself, that you are a pedophile. And before that, I had never fantasized about kids. I had never looked at kids in a sexual way or anything, but I just had this thought in my mind, and it was like, a really scary experience. Then I just got home. I opened up my laptop, and I wrote down on the computer a sort of diary, you could say, that now, today, I just realized I’m attracted to kids. |

I will not say it was easy for me to acknowledge my attraction, because I am 24 now, and I was 22 when I acknowledged it to myself, and it was actually a really weird experience, because, this might sound weird, but there was this teacher at Oxford who once argued that it’s not so much that you change your mind, as much as it is that your mind changes you. And that was really the experience I felt like, because I was just walking home from school, to my parents’, and I didn’t intend to think in my mind, but I did, that just accept to yourself, that you are a pedophile. And before that, I had never fantasized about kids. I had never looked at kids in a sexual way or anything, but I just had this thought in my mind, and it was like, a really scary experience. Then I just got home. I opened up my laptop, and I wrote down on the computer a sort of diary, you could say, that now, today, I just realized I’m attracted to kids.

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|  |  | 7 May 2018 your mind changes you jakob I was a very confused teenager, and I actually went from being straight in my own mind to being gay. And, you know, then being a pedophile...

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|  |  | 7 May 2018 your mind changes you jakob I was a very confused teenager, and I actually went from being straight in my own mind to being gay. And, you know, then being a pedophile...

7 May 2018 your mind changes you jakob I was a very confused teenager, and I actually went from being straight in my own mind to being gay. And, you know, then being a pedophile...

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the p word is a collection of 319 articles, blogs, podcasts and threads in the voices of pedophiles and others who oppose adult child sexual contact and sexual exploitation of children. Despite our mainstream views, this content is frequently removed from social media or blog sites because openly discussing pedophile attractions or avowing them are not tolerated. Our side of the conversation continues here.
editor at the p word net Except where stated, all images are AI and do not depict real people.